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72-year-old Qubi value (a pseudonym) and his wife married 30 years, Hall room apart, between each other; courtship years, now still languishing, a man slowly walked his own way.
More than 10 points, Qubi value into the kitchen. He and his wife do not share utensils. He cooker, gas stove with his wife; he used mini rice cooker, rice cooker with another wife. Pots and pans and even the oil, soy sauce, vinegar, spices, each one of them,canada goose homme, and never shared. Salt, he and his wife shared a unique seasoning. . "Because salt is cheap, each with less" & nbsp; & nbsp;
 
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Past are gone. Today the road, still only one person walking slowly.
 
Football dressing mirror, like "Days of Being Wild" in as
 
6:00 in the morning, the sun through the windows and network security, mottled face value according to the writing technique. He slept in the living room, her face was lanky, sharp chin, wrinkled eyes, nose full. Beard already gray, slightly open mouth revealing a row Yinya. Out of bed, he is of thin build, back a little bent.
 
More than 10 square meters of hall piled his belongings: 1.2 m bed, single use wooden wardrobe, an old-style 24-inch TV, an office chair, which is almost all of his valuable possessions. Debris piled in the hall, out of a small half-meter wide aisles, easy to move around. He staggered into the bathroom to wash.
 
Qubi value come up with a small vanity mirror, his eyes staring at herself in the mirror, holding a comb carefully comb from left to right, like "Days of Being Wild" in the Tony as full spray shaving cream, shaving pick up the black knife, sullenly, little by little, shaved dense fibrous roots.
 
Time had eroded his face, but it seems the year of Peugeot lays out appearance.
 
Talking about appearance, he until now "very very Qi" (very proud), Yuehua Jian, the right index finger will not consciously poke his face, head crooked to the side, eyes narrowed in a line, exposing spoiled meaning: " I get people Zhongyi good Karma "(A lot of people like me).
 
He looks for self-confidence, from the age of 10 there.
 
10 years old, students get together to talk,http://andromeda.rutgers.edu/~jlynch/cgi-bin/18th.cgi, "which pretty girls, which the girls cute", he did not mention the motivation to start. Because he felt that he spoiled when more lovely than girls. But the "masculinity" is his lack, he can not imitate the kind of masculinity.
 
To this end, he found himself look like the guy, look at the kind of full of masculine men, "I want to reach out, to befriend them."
 
Cultural Park in secret
 
Qubi value grew up living in the Liwan District, the neighborhood knew he wanted to have fun, and even a little "salty." He listened to the neighborhood that cultural park in the evening, there are many "×× Ghost" (then the derogatory terms for gay men) gather, this gay gathering place, then called "fishing."
 
That era, everyone is disgusted with gay men, people say: "Wu Ma black paint, do not know what those sick doing something disgusting." But after writing technique known value, but then at night Cultural Park is full of longing.
 
When he was 13 or 14, the day in community service depot sawdust. A dinner, on the closet to get a dime, secretly slipped out of the house, nervous and looking forward to the rush Cultural Park.
 
Cultural Park during the day he had been at night Cultural Park, he was the first time I saw.
 
Walked around the door, two or three adult men avoid street, in a dark corner, "affectionate",http://www.midmopigskin.com/cgi-bin/guestbook/guestbook.cgi, "smiling."
 
He pocket a dime out, he stroked his, buy a park ticket. "Inside, I saw almost all men", under dim lighting, Qubi value warm feel physically shares surging, full of ambiguity.
 
Thirteen-year-old, he is in the eyes of others or "child", he was a man sitting on a stone bench in the park, to see past the men, carefully observe their child, faces, eyes. Encountered appearance handsome, handsome, and he can not help but look at them, masculine face, full of British Gas, he is himself, "willy-nilly, he approached accosted."
 
That night after "feast for the eyes", to become a cultural park every day after dinner he fixed program.
 
After going a few times, Qubi value more bold.
 
"Two people eye contact, a little feeling," he would take the initiative to sit next to, shy not stage fright, sometimes directly head on the other's shoulder. He likes some of the older, good-looking, bearded man chat.
 
"My mouth sweet, amusing others", the two will talk from hobbies to work, Qubi values to hear the older man told him the truth, he listened carefully, nodding his own small neotenous head.
 
In that year, more than 21 o'clock on the road, few people, he was reluctant to trot home, after a dim light and warm lights.
 
Sometimes my father would blocking the intersection, he struck his head with his fist, "Why are you so salty." Father and neighborhood only know that he is a child, like a bull. But then we also do not know about homosexuality, I thought Qubi value just fun, ruffian.
 
"At that time, the social exclusion of gay men are very, hooliganism is buckle hats over their heads." One day more than 21:00, Qubi value and a man hold together, intimate action. Run into the neighborhood to check with a flashlight shining them. "Two men hold together, certainly not a good thing!" Neighborhood people to sand the police station and told the parents to lead people.
 
Qubi value because or "child", at most, to be scolded a pass, hit a few, but the other side is the unit who were forced Xiebaozhengshu. After that, she never met.
 
30 years, strangers under the same roof
 
2015, Huangpu District, a 32 square meters of dormitory units, one-bedroom, where home values are writing technique. But he only stayed in the living room, and never entered the room.
 
A private room separated, room housed wife have been married for 30 years.
 
Qubi value and wife do with each other, mutual non-interference, sometimes a year are not say a word.
 
His wife lived in the room, he lived in the living room. Door closed, Qubi value do not even know her room there is no TV.
 
Currently, their spouses pensioners, Qubi value only pay for his wife, is the monthly utility bills by him out.
 
9:00 every day more, Qubi value carrying a pink shopping bags out, leaning on stair handrail, step by step, move down the stairs. In the vegetable stall point pick vegetables, melons, beans, to "pork-wing" there pick a small piece of pork, less than half an hour he would come home.
 
Just open the door, he would hit from the house of his wife, the two carried away to go, without a word, passing.
 
More than 10 points, Qubi value into the kitchen. He and his wife do not share utensils. He cooker, gas stove with his wife; he used mini rice cooker, rice cooker with another wife. Pots and pans and even the oil, soy sauce,http://www.uberiku.com/yybbs/yybbs.cgi, vinegar, spices, each one of them, and never shared. Salt, he and his wife shared a unique seasoning. "Because salt is cheap, each time with less."
 
Most of the kitchen filled the position of his wife, "guy", gas stove, pots and pans, daily necessaries, because Qubi value also believes that "the kitchen is a woman's place."
 
He used only a corner of the cooker, rice cooker cook.
 
If you want to put the kitchen condiment of two people, it is clearly not enough location. Therefore, the value of each Qubi need to live in your own living room, to the kitchen to cook the sauce. He always vegetables and meat together into the cooker with white boiled, hardly cooking.
 
Around 11:00 every day, he has already done the cooking, on a small coffee table, slowly.
 
Under the same roof, Qubi little value and wife dined at the same table.
 
Qubi value that married and his wife was his "life's wrong."
 
In 1984, 41-year-old does not want to marry a wife Qubi value this, but in the close friend's urging, he met blind date. 29-year-old woman. Met side, the writing technique value "heart did not feel like a little." But under the prevailing social climate, "bite the bullet" absolutely no feelings of each other they married. Wedding night, not to mention the wedding, did not touch the body touched.
 
Married three months, the woman filed for divorce, writing technique value was "was very fun," "almost applauded." The next day, going to get the annulment, the result happens to be New Year's Day, not separated into. Then their work after the holiday, divorce and nobody mentioned. Later, his wife filed for divorce again, but on condition that Qubi value to give her a residence, writing technique values "do not."
 
This couple is so over 30 years, under the same roof, than a stranger still unfamiliar.
 
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After dinner packed dishes, nearly 13:30 when he began to wrap the head, relaxed expression. Because the next day is the most exciting time Qubi value.
 
"In a long and useless," the single closet, abnormal dazzling color of the clothes. And fine clothes and more, there are color T shirt, striped shirt, red trousers and other fashionable attire, but it seems a long time did not move over. Qubi value, said: "Older, now wearing too fancy out bad," writing technique miss the daily value for sets of "armor" glory days.
 
In the 1980s,http://www.matsue-yado.com/otoku/clip.cgi, when gay men because of different stature, played by Azeri circle different code, skinny called "ribs," full of sensuality is called "streaky." Qubi value has always been slim, he dubbed himself "fine ribs."
 
At that time, near the Zhujiang opened a lot of new bars, gay bars clustered spread among the people, insiders have heard. While out "Po" to hundreds of dollars a night, "expensive",moncler pas cher, but went to a writing technique value or twice, because he is very fond of dancing.
 
Fancy dress shirts, leggings, body glitter, Qubi value into the bar dance floor, a "Peoples focal point." He crouched down next to the column, the left foot stretched out, draw a large circle along the floor, comfortable coherent action, applause everywhere. Ballin, waist, leg, some difficult dance moves have not beat him. "In particular, wearing combat gear, it is full of fighting, bursting with confidence."
 
Sometimes, the neighborhood saw him wearing tights, leggings, walking twist twist, even concerning him, "the woman type", "sissy." At that time, young and fit he usually back a "supercilious", it continues to move forward, without fear.
 
He felt "beauty" is inherited from the mother. "Woman of the 1930s are conservative, but my mother wearing high heels, miniskirts." Mom will infect the heart of this beauty to him.
 
Time back in 2015. Young is no longer, now, he dressed requirement is decent. Brown stand-up collar short-sleeved PO & nbsp; LO shirt, black trousers, he opened on the porch at the glasses case, cloth and wipe clean with sunglasses glasses, happily go out.
 
Afternoon, the park "look at the scenery."
 
From the Huangpu home to Yuexiu Area Park subway takes at least 45 minutes. To the park, he naturally proudly stood with both hands, walked back and forth. He said, walking in the park will feel a lot of "meaningful" look, he would raise his head a little some bulging chest walked over.
 
Tired, Qubi value will sit down and see a man coming and going. He now has absolutely no sex, go out every day to enjoy some "good things", became his most fun thing.
 
One day, a man approached the forties, his hands behind his back, showing ambiguous eyes, mouth smile. Qubi value in response to him a pair of flirtatious, "eyes right on." Qubi value said, with his years of experience, the eyes can be seen from the other side is not the same kind of people, the accuracy rate of 99%. He Miao Miao corner chair empty place, suggesting that the other party can sit down. Thus, the other sitting posture beside him, the two from "Where are you" talk to "intimate emotional thing."
 
Because he went to the park almost every day, a lot of people and he has long been familiar. Every day he went there, I saw he beckoned him over, a few elderly people sat together talking and laughing, watching the circle of dynamic, talk about "Recently there any new people to," "What happened to so and so who." This is his most looking forward to every day, the most relaxed moments.
 
We chatted about the romantic history of the year, sometimes smile Huazhiluanchan, sometimes gloomy atmosphere. Qubi value as a veteran gay,http://store.shopping.yahoo.co.jp/billy-k/groovya1a1.html, always good-naturedly to the circle of people say, "pay attention to good protection measures."
 
"I love to go home", home? Love it?
 
Departing lively circle, home, Qubi value leaned into the office chair.
 
20:00, he was holding a remote control, transferred to Hong Kong Jade, in time to watch the TV series "love to go home." "" Love home "playing workday half hours a day, broadcasting from 2012 to the present, has been broadcast nearly 800 sets. Each episode a little story, it occurred in a person who Ma, stories bread and water, but interesting." He almost did not fall episode.
 
Parents died young, Qubi value is always a loner, "almost no concept of home." He said that the only feeling of being loved the feeling is gone in a man's body in Macau.
 
50 years later, he could not remember the man's name.
 
In 1959, the value of the 16-year-old writing technique, after dinner, he went to the mall to hang out. Pretended to Tiaoyi Fu, suddenly saw coming out of the dressing room, a 30-year-old, tall man, handsome face, nose high. He was fascinated, weird ass walking behind the others followed.
 
Think that people living in the vicinity of his home, he told to the mouth of the alley when the man turned and looked at him, "look right on," writing technique value "feeling",http://xbboss.com/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=12141, smiles.
 
After that,http://www.m-pep.org/spip.php?article4022, he often something all right man in the downstairs living rock, see if I can look more glances. One night, he saw the lover, the man asked to go to the sand surface, Qubi value is to follow up.
 
I met a few times after, the two began to conversational. After dinner, they met if in downstairs, you go to sand blow, chat. Tall man in Hong Kong often bring him candy, and told him the story, saying that the truth of life, the young Qubi value also want to hear.
 
After six months, her lover suddenly Qubi value that this is the last time we met up. Men who want to move to a Macau Qubi value one, tears streaming crashed face. That night, they stayed until 11:00,woolrich online, I feel to say how are lots to talk about. They leaned against the fence on the river chatting, sweetheart off his coat, resting on a small body panel Qubi value, he gently rested his head on her lover's arm, slowly close your eyes.
 
His most loved people left, Qubi value continues to blend into the various "fishing", but are "meet by chance."
 
Until 1974, Qubi value as the old youth, then the new little jump the queue educated youth. Looks handsome lovely Amin (a pseudonym) about to catch his attention. When they work in the fields in Zengcheng Woodland, finally there is the rest of the time, Amin took Qubi value play everywhere. To the city shopping,collane tiffany, play badminton, their relationship quickly recovered. "Look at his work tired, give him soup, made supper, sweet potato stew, eat him a certain reserve."
 
However, Amin did not feel like writing technique value man, he decided to hidden feelings, when his good brother, not out of range. Even sleeping in a bed, writing technique has never been afraid to have a little trick value.
 
Biezhu no place to vent feelings, writing technique sometimes is in the middle of the night in front of a large hill surrounded by singing love songs, sing tears, finally broke down in tears.
 
Last resort
 
TV drama "love to go home," the theme song he already familiar, "the most beautiful is this kind of love," whispered the last sentence he would sing along.
 
Whenever the drama play, there will be parents in a short sound like family quiet room. Qubi value carefully listening, watching, when you cry, sometimes laugh, the story of the horse family also has his a joy, anger, sadness.
 
People to old age, he was still alone and independent. However, in order for the plan to death, now he has a relatively fixed, can take care of his living friends from time to time, was his last resort.
 
Sim & nbsp; on (a pseudonym) is a friend writing technique values,scarpe hogan, over 40 years old, has a wife and a daughter. In 2002, when he went to the park in Foshan, and Sim & nbsp; on "right on the eye", the two sides talk quite well, nothing is talk. Qubi know they have value to old age, "when students do not need someone to take care, when he died hoping that someone take care of things behind." He and Sim & nbsp; on acquaintance now, would call every day, more than a month to see once more profound feelings, and Sim & nbsp; on people honest, Qubi value going to his funeral entrusted to him.
 
Sim & nbsp; on the family know Qubi value, but do not know the relationship between them, but to treat him as uncle. In order to repay Sim & nbsp; on, two years ago Sim & nbsp; on the new house, he bought a TV gave him more than 10,000 yuan, and later sent nearly a million refrigerators.
 
Holidays, Sim & nbsp; on home is his reliance. Sim & nbsp; on is the only thing that would come to his house guest of the guests, sometimes a little daily necessities, and sometimes a little gift, he felt good and warm.
 
Half an hour of "family life" blink on the subtitles, Qubi value off the TV, the window of the night slowly infiltrated. Wind hit, he stood at the window. Ringtones pierced the quiet, he picked up the phone, his head down, Weicu eyebrows, eyes half-amused, effortlessly look to the phone screen. Then, quickly press the answer key, from the smile on his face surrounded.
 
"Hey, Simon, ah, I finished eating, you eat it?" ......
 
End with Simon on the phone, 21:00 and more, Qubi value off the glasses, got into bed, accompanied by the quiet of the night, to sleep.
 
Version AⅡ03-04 written: Southern Reporter Shuang
 
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